Busy busy busy

No posts for months, how slack!
But I now have two jobs (own business plus part-time retail work), plus finishing up uni (assignments, exams, everything!) and charity/volunteer work...it is just too much.
So I have decided to put this blog on hold, just until I get back on my feet and things settle down :)
Adios!

changed ambitions

When I first started at uni, all I had in my sights was a big corporate career; wearing a 'success' suit, earning a six figure income and having a ton of workers under my supervision, like little worker ants scurrying around and obeying my orders. Actually, I think I shared this disposition with most of my fellow business degree undergrads. Children, I thought, would factor in somewhere around 30, and I'd pop them out and return to my Big Important Corporate Career faster than you could say daycare. I started my own marketing agency to test the waters. I studied business book after business book. I dreamt of being profiled in BRW as one of the rare ones who 'had it all'.
What a load of crap.
Now, each to their own and good on you if that's what you truly want and are making it happen (and you are happy)! But about a year ago something changed in me. No longer did I want the pressures of a corporate career or to set myself up for a struggle between work and children. I would've been on my way to becoming a stressed out, overworked and miserable person. And as I got older, I wanted children younger. Like, now. Even though I'd never dream of being a stay-at-home-mum (because I'd have my Big Important Corporate Career, duh!), right now it feels like my calling. I love to work but now I'm focusing it more on working from home, establishing myself so that when children come along I can be there with them everyday and bring in a small but helpful income on the side. Surprisingly, I am also happy to step back into traditional gender roles and would prefer it if my partner was the breadwinner whilst I looked after the kids. You would never hear that come out of my mouth a few years ago.

My new ambition is to create a happy, loving family...to work a little but focus purely on happiness. Because seriously, life isn't a dress rehearsal and nobody on their death bed says they wish they'd worked more.

life frequencies

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Energy.
The very thought conveys images of matter; a cluster of invisible vibrations containing atoms and molecules. It blows my mind, this 'stuff'. Perhaps because energy is invisible yet present in everything. Without energy, we would cease to exist.
We mere humans see things as wood, steel, flesh, dirt, liquid, gas. All of this is just matter; energy. But what about what we don't see - and what we haven't yet discovered?
Vibrating frequencies are present everywhere. Since we discovered facts like mobile phones emitting microwaves, and electrical boxes containing a forcefield of powerful energy - we have also recently discovered that these invisible frequencies can have dire consequences on our health if we receive regular exposure to them.

Which brings me to the question - what haven't we discovered? They say afterlife and ghosts and spirit guides and other woo woo happenings are a result of our imagination trying to deal with abnormal encounters - but what's not to say they are just matter vibrating on a different frequency, but sharing our same world? Think about it. We could have layers upon layers of paranormal or even extraterrestrial matter all existing together but not in tune with each other. This could explain why some people are gifted clairvoyants or psychics - their frequencies are able to be picked up on a different level, thus they tap into these other layers around us.

It is something that we are never going to know, unless our technology further develops and science is able to 'prove' this. Human beings are a very self-centred species and the extent of what we don't know really hits home when we think of just how insignificant and small we are in the scheme of things. I really hope that one day we are able to find out the truth - but then again, the mystery keeps us all on our toes.

manifesting problems

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Do you talk to yourself? I do. All the time. Actually I have about a conversation with myself almost every time I'm alone.
These conversations are all in my head, rarely are they out loud. And they tend to be about a problem or issue or future confrontation that I'm focusing my energy on at that time.
I really need to stop doing it though. By having these created conversations in my head, I am focusing on negativity and rarely does it get me anywhere. Most of the time, the situation does not even happen, or it never happens the way it plays out in my head. I work myself up for nothing. I actually get a pain in the pit of my stomach that reminds me to stop, take a big breath and let it go.
A few months ago I had a pretty traumatic experience that I just can't get out of my head. It has been my focus since it happened, and I keep imagining myself coming face to face with the person who caused it all and how the conversation would pan out. It's making me very unwell and stressing me out even though nothing has happened since. But I'm a big believer in manifesting what you focus on, and I keep narrowly missing coming into contact with this person. It's too close for comfort though.
It is SO easy to say, 'the past is in the past, let it go' or 'don't let that person rule your life' etc...but it is so hard to stop your mind wandering back to the incident and the person - especially when their name is spoken almost every day, in a positive-light.
Does anyone have any tips I can implement? I try to stay positive most of the time but when it comes to this person I pretty much go to pieces and can't let it go.

half year intentions

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This is inspired by Laura's post at One April Morning.


On the 14th January 2011, I made two resolutions: build my house, and continue to train and eat well. The latter has been pretty easy, with my training coming along in leaps and bounds. The former? Well, things change. It has been put on hold for a few years whilst we figure out what our next 'stepping stone' will be. Actually, I feel as if my carefully constructed Life Plan has been turned on its head.


Due to this, my intentions for the rest of 2011 are:

• stop planning the big things for now - just let life take me where I need to go. Put faith first and know that I'll end up where I'm meant to be. See everything as an adventure and a learning opportunity.
• stop talking and start doing - this is particularly relevant to me right now.
• try to look at everything in a positive light, always.

a slow city

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I am taking a tourism marketing subject this semester (last semester at uni after five long years!) and I need to create three reports on a tourism issue over the course of the semester. I am very excited as I am passionate about something called the Cittaslow Movement. I will implement this idea/strategy across all three assignments if I can, and will also report my findings on this blog. Please stay tuned if you are interested in this! I hope to see many more communities take on this way of life.

review: minding frankie

I finished reading the delightful Minding Frankie by Maeve Binchy the other day. In a nutshell, it is about a little community of people who take turns babysitting a child. Stay with me here...
It is an amazing story with many charismatic and flawed characters. Actually, so many 'main' characters that it probably wouldn't work in any other book - but Binchy ties them all in together so nicely so that you're not overwhelmed with keeping up with them all. Amongst the main characters is a recovering alcoholic, a workaholic with no friends and no personality, a couple of elderly characters, a priest, a girl who puts her life on hold for a one-sided romance, a doctor and his wife, a cancer patient, and a lady who is glue that holds everything together - and these characters are just off the top of my head, there are many more!
A lighthearted and easy read, but with enough depth for the important issues and a really, really good writing style, I highly recommend this book to anyone.